Fading.

Im overwhelmed and tired. I dont even know whats wrong with me I might be sick, I have been like really really hot lately and everyone else is like its sooo cold and Im like no Im hot. Oh well Im just gonna ignore it and hopefully it will go away. I feel like Im falling into a bigger pile of homework which is making me drift socially. This girl who is like obsessed with trying to get me and Paul together. (since Liz is like the only one who reads this she knows) She told me today that she bumped into him at a party over the weekend they talked and she said "you and Kaela would be cute together" she said he agreed. So what I dont get is why hasnt he like done anything about it. I told her that I just want things to work themselves out that I didnt personally want to put much effort into it. I think I realized why I really want it that way is because I feel like if he tries hard and puts the effort out there than things will work better and last longer. Because I really like him he makes me laugh and hes really nice and Im just really comfortable with him. I guess we will just see what happens. But I dont even know when Im going to have time for a boyfriend. My life is so crazy and when I do get a break from all of it all I want to do is sleep. Thats causing me to drift away from everyone thats important like I honestly cant remember the last time I hung out with Katelyn. I miss her a lot, she has been one of my best friends. Shes always been there for me and shes really fun to be around. Theres just a lot to love. I dont know I just need therapy I think, I wont get it but I should. Ugh

7th Heaven
When I see their happy faces,
smilin' back at me...
7th heaven
I know there's no greater feelin' than the love of family
Where can you go
When The world don't treat you right?
The answer is home!!!!!!!!!
That's the one place that you'll find,
7th heaven.
Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh!
7th Heaven
7th heaven