Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Blahh =/

Im sooo moody lately. I dont quite get it. Most of the time Im just so tired. I get stressed easily. I also think I have forgotten how to cry, and how to have fun. I barely laugh anymore, which is very weird I used to not me able to stop. I need a break from school I think that is the biggest drag on my life right now. Only a few more weeks. I feel like lately in school Im doing much better since Im not speaking to any of my friends (for reasons unknown), but at the same time I feel like Im going day by day in a trance like nothing is going on or I barely pay attention to any of it. I feel like everyone else notices it especially when one of my ex-boyfriends sent me a message saying “dont fade away..”, I havent talked to him in a while so I hoping thats what he meant by it, unless I really am obviously fading or something of the sorts. Its like Im being very self centered and the only thing on my mind are my own troubles and nothing else is worth my time. I cant help but wonder how much more I can take of this how much longer Im going to be able to go on just living in my trance before everything really gets to me and I break down. As much as I want a break from school I think that will be when I crash, because I will have nothing else to do or worry about. Maybe I need to though, maybe I just need to let my body break down and then I can actually relax. I just dont know anymore. =/
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  1. Liz MattarazzoFebruary 23, 2010 at 9:51 PM

    I'm sorry :/ this is really depressing. I've been so tired lately, I think it's mostly because I haven't been feeling well. But you'll have spring break soon, right? And then you'll have a week away from the work. And I thought you had fun on Saturday night? Didn't that go well? And I'm still here for you, I notice you and care about you. But it's good to cry and let things out and relax so hopefully you get the chance to do that soon.

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  2. KaelaFebruary 23, 2010 at 10:26 PM

    Ive been exhausted its weird like I sleep for more than 8 hours most of the time but its like Im restless through out the night. Tossing and turning and stuff like that. I think break is in like 2 weeks Im not sure. Saturday was a lot of fun. I know you are, I just wish you werent so far away. =/ I just feel like every time I do get the chance to stop and relax something comes up so I really hope that isnt the case fore break. =/

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