Fading.

Im overwhelmed and tired. I dont even know whats wrong with me I might be sick, I have been like really really hot lately and everyone else is like its sooo cold and Im like no Im hot. Oh well Im just gonna ignore it and hopefully it will go away. I feel like Im falling into a bigger pile of homework which is making me drift socially. This girl who is like obsessed with trying to get me and Paul together. (since Liz is like the only one who reads this she knows) She told me today that she bumped into him at a party over the weekend they talked and she said "you and Kaela would be cute together" she said he agreed. So what I dont get is why hasnt he like done anything about it. I told her that I just want things to work themselves out that I didnt personally want to put much effort into it. I think I realized why I really want it that way is because I feel like if he tries hard and puts the effort out there than things will work better and last longer. Because I really like him he makes me laugh and hes really nice and Im just really comfortable with him. I guess we will just see what happens. But I dont even know when Im going to have time for a boyfriend. My life is so crazy and when I do get a break from all of it all I want to do is sleep. Thats causing me to drift away from everyone thats important like I honestly cant remember the last time I hung out with Katelyn. I miss her a lot, she has been one of my best friends. Shes always been there for me and shes really fun to be around. Theres just a lot to love. I dont know I just need therapy I think, I wont get it but I should. Ugh

7th Heaven
When I see their happy faces,
smilin' back at me...
7th heaven
I know there's no greater feelin' than the love of family
Where can you go
When The world don't treat you right?
The answer is home!!!!!!!!!
That's the one place that you'll find,
7th heaven.
Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh!
7th Heaven
7th heaven

rambles.

1. My friend told me today that Im five years old at heart! Ha I so believe it I went to see Nemo on ice today. I was so happy way more excited than my three year old sister, I got a nemo hat and mug.

2. Today at dinner we bumped into girls from school reason why I know Im in a trance they were there the whole time and I didnt see them at the table over for 20 minutes. Things then got awkward I wish I never saw them.

3. I have 3 exams on Wednesday, 4 if I decide on taking my online exam. It really depends how I feel that day. One Im not worried which is Brit Lit at all the teacher said it should be cake if you participate in class and do all the reading which I have done. Another one Im sort of not worried about which would be my women studies class is mostly history type things and sense Im really into the class I think I should be fine. Schools in American Culture can go either way I think. I need to study my hardest for that one, I know it.

4. I have this weird like organization thing going on I dont know like I want everything to be in order and stuff. Maybe its because I spend a lot more time in my room and stuff like that.

5. Im sad the Olympics end in four days but I cant wait for Parent Hood to start. :D

I dont know what else I have homework to do. =/

Blahh =/

Im sooo moody lately. I dont quite get it. Most of the time Im just so tired. I get stressed easily. I also think I have forgotten how to cry, and how to have fun. I barely laugh anymore, which is very weird I used to not me able to stop. I need a break from school I think that is the biggest drag on my life right now. Only a few more weeks. I feel like lately in school Im doing much better since Im not speaking to any of my friends (for reasons unknown), but at the same time I feel like Im going day by day in a trance like nothing is going on or I barely pay attention to any of it. I feel like everyone else notices it especially when one of my ex-boyfriends sent me a message saying “dont fade away..”, I havent talked to him in a while so I hoping thats what he meant by it, unless I really am obviously fading or something of the sorts. Its like Im being very self centered and the only thing on my mind are my own troubles and nothing else is worth my time. I cant help but wonder how much more I can take of this how much longer Im going to be able to go on just living in my trance before everything really gets to me and I break down. As much as I want a break from school I think that will be when I crash, because I will have nothing else to do or worry about. Maybe I need to though, maybe I just need to let my body break down and then I can actually relax. I just dont know anymore. =/

New car : Ford Focus.

My mom just told me I need to get a new car ugh. I love my little Camry but I really like the Ford Focus. And I found one same price range as my Camry was and its a 2002 so Im hoping it will work out. This is it.

http://www.moreautobuyer.com/LargePhoto.asp?vid=46270